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It could've been us, you and me to eternity.  But no, you just didn't want to or wait, did you mean yes? Or maybe not? 

An inextricable misery. 

I struggled with it for a long time- what was it?  

God, the Universe, Fate, me?

Why, oh why?

I lost myself, left empty, numb.

If only I'm good, brave, honest, real- then..

But it wasn't my fault.

You were wrong.

In every possible way.

Pushing and pulling, dauting, belittling and much more.

You little mindfucker.

I needed myself back, desperately. 

My friend, I was never the mistake.

It was you.

So I wiped away your poisonous being once and for all. 

It's been quite a while. 

And now look at me, boy.

I finally did it.

I am. -Jane